I read Shakespeare’s plays to my children when they were three and six. I read while they ate lunch because it was the only time those two could sit still. Great literature was new to me so I stumbled over Mr. Shakespeare’s words and rhythms.
Even so, Paul and Anna named our independent, terrier puppy Cardinal Wolsey. One day ‘pensive’ was our new word, and Paul flopped his chin down on top of his fist and called out, “I’m pensive!” Then he slipped his second fist under his chin and announced, “I’m double pensive!!”
My dead husband once said, “Everything I hear reminds me of me.”
We can consume all that is around us, then let our bones vibrate to Mossorgsky, next we cannot sit still while contemplating quantum physics. Our energy can be still, almost petrified, while confronting something new. Our souls shrink from bad and our cells ring with the good. It’s then we are awake as is Sally below.
I stand outside. The sign on the door announces, ‘closed’ so I don’t even try the knob.
An hour later I’m inside and the sign on the door to outside says, ‘closed’ so I don’t grab the door knob.
Sometimes I don’t open all the doors I could. Sometimes I live below my approbation.
When I was little my grandfather hurt me. Years later, when my Mom could finally speak of it, she said, “He was just so full of love. I thought, “I’ve got no idea what it’s called but what he did was not love!”
Years later Grandpa died, leaving me a bit of money. It was a very small amount but it pulled on me as if I was carrying around a ton of contaminated earth. It was the exact amount of a necklace that dangled heavily with glass and metal hearts.
First I grew to appreciate Prokofiev, but now I am unable to do anything but listen – stone still. I can hardly breath, especially to Capulets and Montagues.
My friend said, “Your limitations are defined by knowing which questions to ask.”
But I was afraid I’d grown too old to ask questions. I tend to immediately identify what is presented to my ears, eyes, and mind. I identify it, and I file it away in its place in my mind which is a good thing as far as survival is concerned.
When I draw a telephone pole, I attempt to draw the wood’s molecules spinning together and wonder if the tree’s spirit is still living in the dry wood, but I don’t ask enough questions.
Everyday I’m disappointed when I open my mailbox and complain, “What? No tiara?” So Amy bought me a bright plastic one for my birthday.https://nancy-mauerman.pixels.com/featured/2-self-portrait-nancy-mauerman.html
John served in Vietnam. I helped him carry the load.
On days I want to ‘look real good’ I tell people my age is eighty- nine. On paper I’m said to be sixty-seven,but some days I feel seven years old so I color pictures in Crayola Crayon.
I don’t understand ladies over forty telling people,” I just turned twenty- nine!” I’d rather be eighty- nine and look sixty- seven!
Quarks are stuck together by atomic energy and become hadrons. The most stable hadrons are electrons and protons. https://nancy-mauerman.pixels.com/featured/self-portrait-nancy-mauerman.html
“Ever stumble to a mirror expecting to see a monster of pain? When I’ve had the flu for a few days, why can’t I look as bad as I feel? I could use some sympathy!” I say to my mature friends who glow with humor and love of life but are in constant pain.
My friend wears a tiny horse on her necklace because she loves horses. I love big pieces of cake. What is important to you?
A teacher showed me this: don’t buy furniture to match the room. Don’t paint a room to match the furniture.
Rather I was to paint a picture so powerful I would tear out walls to house the art properly. I would want to paint them to support the picture and buy or remove furniture to accentuate it. The shoe isn’t important. The run is.
My cats are so excited when I bring home a big bag of cat food. I’d be excited too if my person brought home a twelve foot high bag of donuts.
I am the center of the universe until I pick up my pencil.
We enter the ether of creation,
wait until chosen.
Control is gone,
until the picture is done.